last night was... i dont even know. i finally got to hang out with meri and her just being there was amazing. but nothing really huge happened between because there was just so much pressure from my friends and the tension was so hard to take. i wish it was just me and her there cause i can talk to her when we're alone and everyone's not telling me what to say or what to do. i hope she gives me a chance to be with her when its just the two of us cause i want to make a better impression on this girl because she makes me feel so incredible when im around her. we dont even have to talk, i just feel it when she's around... i've got a lot more to say but i dont have time to write... ill continue this later